Tuesday, March 27, 2007

My Reading Life


I have always loved words. When I was younger, I enjoyed discovering new words and using them voraciously. I used to get a kick out of learning the obscure meanings to words. In first grade, I would get high marks for handwriting. Not because I practiced endlessly but because I enjoyed seeing the words I “created”. It was exciting. And when these magical little words combined in a great story, I was hooked! I used to love reading both books and song lyrics.

Then there was Ms. Cooley, my second grade teacher. We had an awesome classroom library that was always at our disposal. She encouraged us to choose books we enjoyed reading and taught us which books were best for our level. I loved sitting in the comfy chairs and reading from these little gems.

As an only child, books were often my best friend. I learned all the “girl stuff” about growing up from a book that I read until the pages came loose from the binding. I could relate to the characters lives and imagined life in their world. As a kid, I loved going to the library and can clearly remember my first library card.

Like a great song, I can connect great books I have read at certain points in my life. For example, reading “ The Autobiography of Malcolm X” in summer camp after starting to formulate an awareness of the civil rights era and the black consciousness movement. I remember reading “ I Know This Much Is True” by Wally Lamb during a period of extreme anxiety and indecisiveness about my future after grad school. I remember reading “The Great Gatsby” for the first time on vacation in Houston. And reading “The Good House” by Tanavarie Due while visiting my grandfather in Florida.

In college, I was a Anthropology major and I read articles, books, and essays laden with theoretical discourse. And I rarely read much fiction. I began to think that fiction was not comparable to the type of information you could learn from informational text. I thought it was basically a waste of time.

But somewhere in grad school I turned to fiction as a “mental” escape. I was bored with the nonfiction format. It was predictable and felt static. It was the text format not the text that bored me to tears! I loved learning and felt I was intellectually expanding but I needed something more. It was then I began really “reading” literature. I was searching for the same excitement, thrill, and connection to stories I felt when I was a child. And I found what I was looking for. I became an avid reader of literature and have been hooked ever since. As a reader I believe I have evolved. It took different experiences, personal and educational, to become a reader who can, at most times, balance any type of text. Reading online has become an extension of that. I can google as fast as my mind skips subjects and skim read for any purpose. I can find fast answers to propel my thinking forward or I can linger on a page and dig as deep as I want. I guess I am still evolving…(Thank goodness.)

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Thursday, March 22, 2007

"MESSAGE!"

I feeling very loquacious today...but i just realized that as far as the writing process goes and this whole blogging thing...I have noticed a change in myself as a writer. First, I am more likely to edit my writing ( although it ususally takes at least 2-3 re-readings to notice errors) Also if someone responds to my blog, I find that I am more likely to read their blog or others in generally...kinda like a blogging "pay it forward" And I am MUCH more self-aware as a writer. I want to make sure what I say accurately reflects what I want to communicate with others (I've probably revised every blog in one way or another). Lastly, most of my blogs attempt to elicit some "action" from the reader...like viewing another website. These personal observations are developing my ideas about using blogs in the classroom context. What do you think?

( For a Little Giggle...Title Reference- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Don't_Be_a_Menace_to_South_Central_While_Drinking_Your_Juice_in_the_Hood)

SOOOOO BUSTED!

I was searching the internet ( at work...tsk.tsk.) for what I could find out about Hopkin Green Frog. ( p.s. I am still at work so I will make this quick!) The phenomenon is interesting but I will blog more on that later. (I found it interesting that the TYPES of websites where you could find information on this meme...( boing.boing., etc.) seemed to share some similarities...which makes sense because it reflects the virtual social circles one travels. But one site ( urbandictionary.com) caught my eye...so after reading the information on Hopkin Green....I did some searching on this site of my own...I looked up a few slang words and giggled a bit or frowned at others. ( Check this site out...it is an EDITABLE dictionary. You can post your own definitions to words! That is a powerful example of the COLLECTIVE intelligence we have been reading about BUT I think it has some dangerous implications. )

I can't go too far off on a tangent so let me bring it back...Anyway...On this site I began to look up some very offensive terms to see what folks were saying. LONG STORY SHORT....I was searching an EXTREMELY sensitive term ( think about all the trouble Isiah Washington has been in for his recent comments about a co-star on Grey's Anatomy)...YUP...That's the one! Just as the definition populated on my screen....MY BOSS WALKS INTO MY CUBICLE WITH A PRINCIPAL! I couldn't close my screen in time so I fiddled a little to get her the information she wanted but I am sure they both knew I was NOT working...(well, not for the EO Board at least.) UUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!! I feel like freaking Charlie Brown....People only notice when I mess up!!!!!!!! I've been working hard as hell lately, staying late nights, working weekends, busting my ass!!!!!!! AND OF ALL TIMES for someone to walk in! AND of all people!!! I am such an idiot!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Left Out of The Conversation

Looming deadlines, personal illness, and procrastination have invaded my life in recent weeks. I have fallen behind in my studies, my personal "projects" (because "issues" is such a loaded word...hee-hee) at home, and I am juggling many projects at work. What is a girl to do? I used to think I was an excellent multi-tasker but in recent weeks, I had to get real. I am a "one thing at a time" kinda girl. (Now I do pride myself on being efficient so I try to get through minor tasks as quickly as possible....but when it's a BIG project...like JayZ..."I'm so focused, man!".) I spend so much time absorbed in the largest task at hand!

Anyway...I am behind a few weeks in class and I noticed that I feel completely left out of the conversations regarding class as a result. I have been keeping up with the readings, searching things online but since I missed a few discussion board posts...I feel left out....sniff.sniff. [ pause for sympathetic consideration] It was just a random thought but this could have an impact on ways in which we decide to use certain "new literacies" practices ( like discussion boards and blogging) in class. If interaction and participation are essential parts of project then how do we monitor participation and provide feedback in a personalized way? Is there a way to re-engage a student who has fallen behind? I maybe just babbling but had a few minutes to vent before yet ANOTHER meeting...( sidebar...i looked up the word meeting. turns out it's origins are related to the word "moot". the adjectival form of the word "moot" means 'OF NO PRACTICAL IMPORTANCE!!! Can I get an AMEN!)

Thursday, March 15, 2007

An Abbreviated Blog Post

Is anyone else beginning to panic about this global warming thing? Why isn't there more time and attention made to this crisis? It can't called an environmental crisis...this is a human crisis! What can I do? Reducing my energy consumption by turning off the lights when I leave the room does not seem like enough! Even if my next car is a hybrid...will that be enough?

Health Is Wealth

About a month ago, I was in Macy's buying a shower gift. Next to me was an elderly woman completing her purchase at the other register. I'm not sure what she and the salesperson were discussing exactly, something about winning money or saving money. And as she walked away from the counter, she turned to the saleswoman and said "Health is wealth." Now I'm sure I've heard this before but it was something about how she said it. Like it was a proclamation from a person who had the first hand wisdom and experience to make such an announcement. For whatever reason, it stuck with me. Little did I know, I would soon come to understand these words personally. About two weeks ago, I went to bed with a sore lower back. ( This is not unusual since I had recently learned that a slipped disc, from a fall in college, in my lower back was sitting on a sac of nerves and thus I was prone to some back pain.) Anyway, after a fitful night's sleep, I woke to probably the worse pain I have ever had in my life!!! My entire back ached like I had a painful charley horse! I couldn't walk, sit, and could barely breathe because ANY movement in my abdominal area resulted in excruciating pain. It was the first time I have felt PANIC when it came to my health. After going to the doctor, taking lots of pain meds, and lying flat on my back for about a week; I slowly became aware of the words from that random Macy's customer. I remember thinking...what if I can't work anymore? what if I have to collect disability? what if I can't have children? and on and on my mind began to race. Although I NEVER want to feel that way again, this experience did help me realize how much I take for granted. Instead of wishing for that bigger house, better car, designer shoes, etc... I am just counting my blessings that I am alive and healthy to greet each new day. Knowing that a day without pain can make me feel like I have a million bucks! Health is truly wealth!